Skype discussion 23/9/20 and reflective ideas

 So this past week I have read through the module two handbook and taking notes as I went along. I started a week late due to personal reasons but I feel quite confident to where I am with my studies. 

I have spent 2 hours every day dedicated to my studies and I have realised that personally, that is the best way for me to learn, then decicating one or two full days of researching, reading and blogging. 

On wednesday the 25th of September I joined the 9pm skype discussion. It was a great conversation between different modules. I felt like my mind was on fire. So many questions and thoughts running through my head that I have never thought of before. I guess being a performer, we are taught to always be perfect and to make sure you get everything right night after night. So, having that ingrained in me for so many years and then approaching a course where you are pushed not to find the answers to things, but to question, is really distressing for me because I always want an answer. Reflecting on this now though, I have realized that it is not the best way to learn and grow in any aspects of my life. I’ve realized the minute you think you know something; you’ve only just begun to scratch the service of what you think to know. I feel to know is not to know, but to understand and feel comfortable that there is more to know. 

I’m still learning what ethical consideration means and thus far, I think it means incorporating other people’s ideas and opinions on the subject matter. 

As I’m going through my own personal growth, I am also expanding my mind to my mind. I always told myself I am not academic but as I am reading and learning more about how this course works, I’m starting to realize to be academic, is to be brave enough to question certain theories and ideas within any aspect of your life, so be it personal, career or studies. 

After finishing the handbook today, I felt everything just clicked and I am confident on where I need to start and how to move forward successfully. 

it's so wild to me, to think when I first started this course I had no idea what I was doing and I was super under confident in myself and put loads of pressure on myself to be right and to know. Now that I am more open minded and looking at my studies in a different light, I am actually really enjoying the module thus far and I am excited to keep learning as much as I can, as I go on. 

I have also made a 6 week plan of what I am going to do. I've realised I am a person who thrives on routine and planning, so planning the next 6 weeks, gives me great comfort and confidence that I will achieve these goals I have set for myself. can anyone else relate? 

Lastly my latest thought......Curiosity, what drives this? 

Please comment your opinions and ideas around this, I would love to hear from you! :) 

Until next time 

CG xoxo